I’m still fascinated by this
Pregnancy
To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.
Pregnancy Test
To dream that you are taking a pregnancy test, may be a metaphor for a new phase you are entering in your life (a new job, relationship, etc.). You may feel that you are being put to the test as to whether you are prepared or ready for these changes. Alternatively, this dream may be literal in meaning and address your anxieties/fears of getting pregnant.
Just realized before I went to bed how close I am to starting up school again. Might I be getting a little nervous about the upcoming semester and summer?
Dreams Take 2
Last night I had a dream that involved my back teeth cracking in half and falling out (the same teeth that I’m concerned about in my waking state) along with invisible, flying cars that only I could see; this would probably also fit into the interpretation that I found for teeth. It all makes sense when applied to what I know I have to work on in my acting and personal life.
Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety.
Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.
Let’s Look at the Successes.
Just a little catching up from the cliffhanger I left two months ago. The audition went well and they invited me back for the group audition and the next day I got a call inviting me to be in the Conservatory. It’s probably the most excited I’d been in months. I was invited to the annual potluck at the Globe to welcome us all to the Globe family; and I’m definitely taking it as an opportunity to impress, so I’m making some fancy rolls. Another Conservatory gal said she didn’t really want to go because she would have to “make conversation”. It blew my mind because it’s vital to your career to be able to make connections and be personable. It’s nerve-wracking, but necessary.
The fall semester is finally over as well and my mid-term expectant marks in Acting would suggest I’m doing pretty darn fine. A major point of stress is how I am going to complete my fourth year when I’ll still be at the Globe doing the first production of the season until the end of October (unless I disappoint completely in the program). I could try to pick up some classes when I’m not working or I could take the semester off all together. It’s really all a matter of seeing what is happening in the theatre department itself before chosing.
As for the present, I’ve got to figure out where to start packing for my move. Not looking forward to the move itself or the fact that I’ll be living in a basement. I do look forward to cheap rent and living in my favorite section of town. I’ll be at Roca Jack’s a heck of a lot more now. There is also the posibility of moving into my ex’s old place above The Crushed Grape. It would be my ideal situation, despite rent being a bit higher than my “uncle”’s place I am in love with the apartment: location, space, the pidgeons.
Now should I start on packing or actually doing my Christmas shopping?
Nerves
In just a few hours I have my audition for the Globe Theatre Actor Conservatory program. Even though it is rare to see me nervous, apart from when I am about to do stand-up, I do have a bit of anxiety heading into this audition. If I don’t make it I’ll have to find something else to do with my summer, not that big of a deal. If I DO make it, I’ll be busy from 10am to 6pm six days a week for four months. Along with this busy there is a $2000 fee while not having enough time to hold a job and needing to find someone who will let me live with them in Regina for free. On top of that, for the participants in the program get “priority to audition” for the shows in the next Globe Season, which would be a full time job for a while which means I couldn’t do that and school at the same time… but it would be a great opportunity.
Seems like a lot less more trouble not to make it. Whatever happens… the ride sure will be fun.
Teaser
Here is the teaser trailer for the film I shot earlier this year. Looks like it’s going to be as much fun to watch as it was to film.
Kansas. Yup.
A quick update since this blog is supposed to document my professional life.
Since getting offered the understudy part I’ve: learned my lines, choreography, music and blocking. After my night-before-the-fact rehearsal last night, it seemed like I knew the play better than those in it. It’s probably comforting for them to know that they’ve got an understudy who is fully prepared to go on, but not so comforting to me to know that things might fall apart onstage at any time (as things seemed to do during the show last night). I’m just going to try not to worry about it and just enjoy myself, remember my lyrics, and do my awesome white girl hip-hop dance with Angie (whom I adore).
On another note, I picked up some Genuine Health Perfect Skin suppliments. Hopefully this will give my body the extra push to clear up my skin. I’ve already started eathing healthier with lots of veggies, and I’ve started eating more fruit again. I’ve got at least one workout buddy for the semester so we can keep each other on track with staying (and getting) in shape. I have a pretty decent body to begin with, so I’d love to see where I could take it.
I’ve got a cute little apartment that is decked out with new appliences and I’ve living with an awesome chick named Jenna, who is a former Suicide Girl. The only downer is that she has a seven-year old cat which I am extremely allergic to. I’ve got my allergy medications ready and I’ll keep the cat out of my room, despite the fact I’ll probably be all over it for a week before I get sick of it. Cats everywhere! I wish I could have the brown shitzu that my second cousin’s dogs had. Molly is absolutely adorable and loves me almost as much as Missy (Dan’s shitzu) does. Mickey was a little too jealous of her when she came to visit.
Now to a bit of packing and then off to sound check!
Life and Lemons
Ain’t We Got Fun opened last night and did not disappoint (click the link to buy tickets!). It was wonderful to see Krista, Leon, Stella and Daniel up there again in those oh so familiar costumes. You could tell that they were having a blast themselves and were completely comfortable and happy to be there together again. For the past two weeks, within the first five minutes of convorsation with anyone is “When are you going to Ain’t We Got Fun? It’s going to be great!” So now I can say “When are you going to Ain’t We Got Fun? It’s great!“
What I didn’t expect when I was heading to opening night was to get a job offer. I was asked to fill in for two shows when the Applause comes to Moose Jaw to perform at the May Wilson. The dates they were given coincide with Shanna’s wedding, and Wink is in the wedding party and the show, so I’ll be taking over for her for the days she is busy with the wedding. It’s very flattering to be asked back and offered jobs that you don’t have to audition for; even if it is just dinner theatre. When life gives you lemons, you make something out of them. Or in my case; I squeeze some money out of them to help me buy groceries and furnish whatever apartment I can get my hands on this fall.
So hopefully more people will come see me in this than they did at my actual Applause show, or my 2nd year final performance. Let’s all go see Amy be silly and do what she can with Grandpa Joe’s Great Bible Stories 2.
Yes, 2.
Ugh.
I’m so disgusted in how attracted I am to husky hipsters. Not disgusted because they are husky, but because they are hipsters.
It's the beards... and flannel.
Just a Word on Work
I’ve been busy living the life here in Moose Jaw! Partying all the time, breaking hearts, making friends.
Just kidding. I’m just working at the Tunnels while being completely unmotivated.
Apart from finishing up Dungeon Crawl, which has been a fun ride. As soon as I think I’m going to be finished with one last interview to shoot this week; John wants me to shoot a short with him right after it. Sounds like a blast. It’s going to involve mime and not-so-bloody revenge. My wardrobe suggestion is that I’m in dresses the whole time… a slight change from the tomboy character I played in the last film. After I’m finished up with those projects I’ll be getting in touch with the director of the student film I was in; Apparently they would like to do some extra shooting to give the story a better arch to submit it into larger film festivals.
I love the travelling and the shooting, but I adore sleeping during the travelling and between shooting.
Here is to wrapping up these projects so I can change my hair. Screw you, continuity!
